I know women tend to apologize more and carry guilt longer than their male counterparts. I manage to take it up a notch.
On Saturday, BF and I had separate plans with our respective friends. Since my plans would end earlier, we agreed that I’d potentially meet up with him and his people. And if not, he’d definitely meet me and my friends at night, when we planned to go out. He’s easy like that.
After my daytime BBQ, I met up with BF and had a great time with his friends for a few hours. Things were winding down, but the remaining stragglers ended up playing a fun game. After two rounds, I gently asked BF if we could go, because I didn’t want to be late to meet my friends. He was perfectly amenable to that and yet… I felt guilty! I felt bad for making him leave a fun activity with a coed group, to go hang out with mostly girls doing girly things like going dancing. Even though BF was perfectly agreeable to leaving, my paranoid self was worried he didn't really want to go out with my friends.
Thanks to too much sun and wine, I got rather drunk and sick that night. I was so passed out, I slept through a 6.1 earthquake!! BF took care of me and stayed over, which I’m sure was not fun for him, sleeping in my overly hot apartment next to a restless drunk girl. I thanked him twice, apologized too many times, and spend Sunday (after he left) feeling both deathly ill and horribly upset about my behavior.
Again, silliness. Who hasn’t had one too many drinks and gotten sick (ok, maybe not in their 30s)? And is it wrong to have your boyfriend take care of you in those moments? I’d definitely do the same for him. BF texted me later in the day to ask how I was doing (the answer: puking up water) and made plans for this week. He's such a good guy.
Because he's a boy and I'm a girl, I will remind myself: do not bring up Saturday night drunken behavior. Do not apologize for being sick, do not thank him (for the third time) for taking care of me. And stop worrying. It's fine.